Stories

It's like a book, they say - just read your story aloud.
I'm sorry, but that's just not going to happen.

Before the words come memories and with the words come emotions and not necessarily happy ones.
More often than not, words and incidents you want to forget.
Deja vu of this kind isn't good for you. It takes you back and stuffs you in that context again - everything you did to get over it, be strong and pull through, all falls away. And you're back to square one - same anger, same tears, same broken heart.

Not again.

Return.

This is nice. The longer I go without pouring out what I want to say, the more things I have to leave out because there's simply too much anger in the words that come rushing from my...fingertips, in this case.
Nevertheless, when you're silenced in every other manner, what better to do that to type your sorrows away?

Why do we bother recording history? It just repeats itself anyway.

Safety First

I heard that someone had heard from someone else that the only people who will survive in this world, those who will be favoured by natural selection and the evolution process, are those who are cautious.
The revenge of the ultra-paranoid population. 
It's not impossible.
From experience over the years, I've realized that I'm one of those people. If something goes terribly wrong while doing Task A, I will stop doing Task A altogether and never do it again. I'll sit thinking for hours of the million other things that could have gone wrong, so much that I'm too freaked out to ever think of doing Task A again. 
I can't quite decide if this paranoia is just over-caution or some sort of psychological disturbance. Either way, if thinking about the possible negativities can save your life, then I'm paranoid.
To the rest of you, be careful.

Optipessimism.

Sam.F :  BE POSITIVE.

3:14am

One Invictus : I cannot.

3:14amSam.F : Why?

3:14am

One Invictus : I believe it was you who told me - ages ago - that it's better to be negative than be positive and have your hopes dashed...and it makes sense.

3:15am

Sam.F : Yes yes I did. But sometimes we mess things up constantly looking for the negativity, did you think that maybe sometimes it's what you bring upon yourself?

3:16am

One Invictus : Well, if we just let the positivity overwhelm us, we will be hit by reality and it'll be worse

3:16am

Sam. F :Don;t let it overwhelm you! Just let it flow through you! You need to let a litle bit of positivity seep in.

3:19am

One Invictus : Not happening

3:19am

Sam.F : Please? For me?

3:19am

One Invictus : Negativity is the soul's natural defense against heartbreak, it's automatic.

3:20amSam

Sam. F : But there is more to life than heartbreak.

3:21am

One Invictus : Like what? Everything is likely to end up in heartbreak.

To You.

You might not ever see this, but your story almost made me cry.
I'm sorry.

We could be friends, you know.

We find friends in the rarest of places. Sometimes, more than the ones we've been looking for, it's those we accidentally chance upon that really leave a mark on our lives.

The ones who you can laugh for endless hours with, the ones around whom you experience life's happiest moments, the one's who convince you to take risks with no regrets. 

Riding at breakneck speed. 

Walking against the blustering sea breeze.

Laughing till you forgot why you started laughing in the first place.  

I live for these moments. 

And the people I share these moments with really make them worth living for.